My worldview: The more pieces of the puzzle I put together, the less I know about anything.
Here is what I'd like to believe: this is all just one big game that God is playing, like a video game turned to super hard difficulty level, just for the sake of playing. We are all characters being played by God and one day the game will end, we will realize it was all just for fun and everything will be "okay". I'd like to believe this because I refuse to concede that Infinite consciousness or whatever God is could be so clumsy and powerless as to get itself in as deep a pile of shit as we find ourselves. I have no direct evidence for this theory though, aside from some psychedelic experiences which don't count because they are in and of themselves part of the game, if that makes sense.
Here is what I've pieced together about the "game" (if it is one): This 'world'/realm was at one point a Divine creation- full of beauty harmony and benevolence. Then one day for whatever reason a truly evil force came, hijacked it, and twisted everything around. We call this "Lucifer" or the Archons. Now everything is ass backwards. We have to kill and eat other living beings to 'survive', we age and die instead of living eternally, we have to 'work' to make anything happen when we should be able to create with a single thought. We feel separation and misery instead of unity and bliss. We are basically experiencing the exact opposite of what reality and Truth is. And this is exactly what Satanism is all about- inverting the truth. These archons feed on us because, similar to the Gnostic understandings, they seem unable to sustain themselves in their separation from the "divine" aspects of reality.
So in this world, in spite of its dream like nature, it is fabricated in such a way as to make the rules very set in stone. We are bound by the 'laws' of the physical (and non physical) realm, and can't seem to break free from the system which we find ourselves. So this aspect gets into the 'reality prison' or "matrix" facets of our experience, which by all means seems to be the case. It seems just when you think you've transcended one aspect of the illusion, a new bigger, better trap is already there waiting for you. Whether it be the magical 'light beings' coming to save us, or 'ascension', or 'enlightenment', or psychedelics, or astral projection, there's always some trap there waiting for us. But we CAN break free, and that's exactly why so many pitfalls are set in place for us- to make sure their food source doesn't go away!
And this process of breaking free is intimately tied with the physical body. No wonder these New Age disinfo groups teach that 'you are not your body'. They don't want you tapping into your power. It has very real functions and is of paramount importance with spiritual transcendence, and once you get manipulated or fucked up energetically, you are in trouble. This is where the DNA manipulation and genetic impairment comes into play- programming us to be unconscious slaves. But there is SOMETHING very important and very magestic about the human expression- and I think part of our heritage ties in to truly Divine and powerful beings- before the "fall" and takeover by lucifer and the fallen angels.
So we have to, against all odds, retrieve our power and break free from the system, whatever that even means. Most people get recycled when they die- they are drugged with bliss and false love/light very much like a kidnapped victim is drugged with heroine. Then they are taken and recycled right back into the machine. It's a time loop we are stuck in. Time is just an illusion- causality is non-linear.
I also think the Matrix might be an actual physical membrane. And this gets into the 'shape' of Earth! What if it's concave and we are in a "cell" like a prison cell and the exit is through the south pole? What if they have already built enough machinery to zap any soul trying to escape through the poles? What then? How would you transcend this prison? What if you are cut off from god/your higher self and there is no one who can pull you out?
We have to find answers to these questions, and fast, because I don't think 'enlightenment' AKA tapping into the mainframe of the matrix is the answer. It's just another trap. We have to DESTROY the very fabric of the matrix. We have to get our power back and work together.
Or it could be just a lightbulb.
