I seem to remember several deaths of mine and even the emotions that have gone with them, they've often been violent. The situations that have happened afterwards have been changing.
Sometimes I have woken up from a mental institution and at least once I remember there being a man next to me. He asked me something that I will keep to myself here. I rejected what he had to say and he said that "we cannot let you go free, your mind is too dangerous". As a child like I did not understand this and started to insist the other way around. As a person they knew I wasn't dangerous however so they were willing to leave the doors open and I could walk freely. I saw other familiar faces from my past life there as well, but was not allowed to interact as the person I was in the life (that is actually the same as this one). I was however fearful and that started to manifest to that world. It was like the movie Inception, dreams within dreams. It also reminds me of the movie the Cell, where the therapeut enters the mind of the patient to find answers, but ends up trying to save the scared boy within the twisted mind where he was trapped and starts to believe that is reality. After dying there my consciousness was woken in a black realm with a white figure in front of me. This has happened to me at least a few times before. The angel like figure always asks like will you go back and they have been manipulative as well to trick you if you are not specific, perhaps it's been for the good if I have not been ready. It is always extremely hard to give specific answers or be inquisitive because you are like lacking your critical thought there, like being a child.
One time I remember a beautiful realm with pinkish purple sky, lots of grass and peace where there were some of my relatives. I could move around there, but was sad as I did not have a companion there as everyone else seemed to have. So they asked me to go back and where I would want to go like to the 80's. At that time I was also very fond of them so was crying will I ever see them again. I was moved back to my childhood of this age with the snap of the finger, not to the beginning of the life, not necesarily from the chronology of my ongoing life.
From this life I remember a weird occurance, where a school friend of mine in elementary explained that here he is only this feeble and weak person, but elsewhere he is a big boss. I've been thinking about that later that do we all have our own worlds / realms, but after certain point can visit the others as well. That could be fun, but being restricted to your own all of it just being a one way street for you and two way for some others make it feel unjust. But perhaps we first just have to learn how to behave before we can go two way.
There is so much more and this is just the tip of the iceberg.
Very real and vivid memories.
Near Death Experience - NDEs
These are strange indeed. Personally, I did experience an NDE twice...
Robert Monroe... saw an enourmous system of pipes transporting human generated energy away from earth.
I've experienced numerous different "me's" lives in dreams before, it is generally mundane life experiences. It isn't miraculous or overwhelming, but nothing is familiar, much how Robert Monroe presents in Journeys Out of the Body.
...In most of these worlds, they are so different and unfamiliar, that aside from similarities of natural life, I wouldn't call them earth whatsoever.
I have had some of those dreams as historical incidents from this world. I remember some parts accurately...
...what I was shown it was the true origins of Tatars. ...From the dream I remember them just coming from the North American continent.
Also from the same area was that there were multiple kingdoms, some white christian that were opposed to the Tatarian invasion. The modern Chinese are not the same as those from the past. In the early 15th century the Chinese built a huge fleet in order to go to Polynesia first and be able to defeat the European power Spain or Portugal. At that time there still were red haired children / hobbit like humanoids existing, but the Maori were to eat them and the fleet was destroyed partially by a comet / asteroid impact prior to that for them not to be able to save them. It was executed by an outside force, perhaps PTB.
...There are others as well but I must keep some of them to myself.
...there's a ton of stuff piled within me for not having the channel to release those thoughts out.
Interesting with dreams. I've also had dreams where I'm different "me". For me those dream experiences have been euphoric in a sense.
...Hallucinogens definitely does something to your consciousness...
Discussing what you perceive with expanded awareness or naturally heightened mentation...
...In the world of Castaneda's Toltecs you could freely discuss what you encountered in a "dream" or an alternate version of this reality.
I go places in my dreams again and again that I have never experienced here. One place I frequent is an odd backyard. The other place is a theater or stadium of sorts. They seem to be sets or stages in which my dreams play out.
To me they always feel "concurrent" with this reality, NOW here is NOW there, and there is no euphoria to speak of. There is no idea of "the world used to be this way, " or "the world will become this way." But "this is a totally different reality, and me as well."
I have almost died twice...
...About 4-5 years ago this phrase came into my mind and the voice said "Earth is a recording device". I know it was not my own thought.
...I think Earth is mechanical. It is a sophisticated machine created by God. It is the highest piece of technology. I know how strange it sounds but it is just a feeling I had one day.
...Oh, and dreams. I feel that is what the world would be outside of the time loop. Do we leave the time loop when we sleep? I keep returning to the same places over and over and I get this deep nostalgia...
The Spirit Molecule (DMT) Experience - The Wild Heretic...I had the most vivid dream after falling to my knees and praying like I had never prayed before. The sun (or moon, not sure which) was slowly descending from the sky. It was huge and a dark burnt orange color, AND IT LOOKED MECHANICAL. It was a machine.